Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Hi :D

Well its been a while since i have posted anything, I have been in Holland on a missions trip, so i havent been able to write anything. But here is a story Im working on at the moment. Enjoy :D




Anne stod i det mørke svarte rommet. Alt hun kunne se var skygger, men ikke sin egen. Den var langt borte. Den forsvant når livet dro. Hun løftet på det slitte lange svarte håret som hang tungt og rotete fra hodet. Hun lukket de store kalde is-blå øynene sine og tenkte tilbake. Hun husket når hun hadde det glamorøse livet. Hun hadde alt. Men plutselig, forsvant det. Nå stod hun der alene. Hun hadde ingenting bortset fra seg selv. Men det var ikke som om hun var verdt mye mer en det.  Anne husket når hun hadde vært en glad jente, hun smilte hele tiden, og alle elsket hennes latter. Nå, når hun møtte på folk, stirret de ned på henne med harde øyne full av hat som slo henne som en hammer rett i hjertet hver gang.

Anne klarte ikke holde det inne lenger. Hun falt ned på den frosene harde bakken og gråt. Det sure vannet stakk i ansiktet hennes. Det stygge ansiktet som var fult av gjørme, smerte og ensomhet. Øynene til Anne stang, ettersom tårene falt raskt ned. Anne holdt enda fast i håret sitt. Hun viste ikke hvorfor, men det var det eneste hun kunne holde i. Det var ingen og ingenting hun kunne holde seg fast i. Hun var helt alene. Det viste hun, men Anne hatet å innrømme det. Etter alt hun hadde gjort, hvordan kunne noen elske henne. Hun var uelskelig. Og det var sannheten.

Men så hørte Anne en lyd. “Nei!” tenkte hun raskt. Hun kunne føle at kroppen hennes stivnet seg rakst. De kunne ikke være tilbake alt. Anne krympet seg sammen til en liten ball. Hun holdt fast i den lange skjorten hennes, det var alt hun hadde av klær. Den var møkkete og ubehagelig å ha på, men den gikk helt ned til knærne hennes og hjalp litt mot kulden, så den var bedre en ingenting.

Det var som å bli jaktet etter, de krøp nærmere henne litt etter litt. Anne hadde lyst til å hyle, men det hjalp ikke. Det var ingen der til å hjelpe henne. Ingen ville hjelpe henne. Men så gikk de. De kom ikke og såret henne mer. De kom ikke og fylte hjertet hennes med mere hat en det allerede hadde. De bare gikk vekk.

Anne følte seg litt lettet. Hun reise seg opp igjen og lente seg mot den kalde stein veggen. Hun så ned på de bare føttene sine. De var nesten blå, det var alt for kaldt I rommet. Men hjertet hennes var like kaldt, kanskje enda kaldere. Men det kom litt varme, etter de hadde gått. For første gang på lenge smilte Anne. Hun likte det. De hadde vært så lenge, det føltes litt fremmed ut. Men hun ville gjøre det igjen. Nå var hun bestemt. Hun skulle komme seg ut.

Friday, April 6, 2012

Quote of the day!

Sometimes we find it hard to smile, or to find a reason to be happy....but honestly, i personally believe we have sooo much unseen to be thankful for. Its so easy for us as people to look past what really matters, and not think about all the joys we really have in our lives. That is why this quote, i hope won't only inspire you, but i know it inspires me. It inspires me to be happy, and to realize all the good i really have in my life. Its just one of those small reminders we sometimes need, that we are special, that we are loved, that we are beautiful and that we matter to people...i hope you see it as well....

I live each day knowing I am loved.....that is all the facts I need to keep a smile on my face each day....
-Elise Tkaczyk

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Feeling Older

This is a poem I wrote a long time ago, 5 years ago now...but this poem, is the poem that started it all. Its the poem I wrote that inspired me to continue writing, I know its not professional, none of my poems are, but its an important poem to me, because it marked the beginning of what I now love to do! :D So enjoy

Feeling older
Feeling older is a deep fall,
down a deep hole.
You are trying to find your way out ,
not doing a very good job.
Feeling fully grown,But you you`re not.
Lumbering around trying to see.
''Get a grip'' you hear ''Get a grip''
You are searching for something you don`t no what.
Then someone says  ''younger, you are younger''
See a dragon flying by he says something you wonder what.
Suddenly the ground shakes, and you`re back to normal,
but something is different.
You cant believe you survived.
With this unsuspecting attack you`re a new person,
And you have a new life.

Sunday, April 1, 2012

Fate

Fate
As I watch the pages of fate turn,
Each going in their own direction.
I wish I could say there was no lesson to learn,
But I’m told that I shouldn't lie.
I remember the days you’d held me close, 
As I was gazing into your eyes.
But when you chose a different road,
I realized all you’d said were lies.
The lies had distracted me from seeing what was real,
But finally the true you showed.
In the beginning it had all sounded like such a deal, 
But in the end you just took my heart and ran.
I sometimes wonder what will become of us two,
And if we’ll ever cross paths again.
But for now all I can do is think of you,
And hope that this so called fate will clear us both a way

Friday, March 30, 2012

You Are

your smile makes my day
your eyes melt my soul
your laughter spreads through me
I love all that you are

your personality is nothing but perfect
your character is all anyone needs
your humor aways makes me laugh
I love all that you are

your embrace numbs every bone in my body
your hands spread warmth when their in between mine
your name rings like a clanging cymbal in my head
I love all that you are

your touch makes me tremble
your sight lifts me up
your comfort stays in my heart
I love all that you are

your presence causes my thoughts to stumble
your loving surprises me every time
your words will always stay in my mind
"I love you even more"

Thursday, March 29, 2012

My Father

after you have read the poem, go through it again and read all the capital words(not the letters)

My Father

my life may only be a child in this world
my soul might not mean much to people in this place
my dreams and hopes may all be too big to achieve
but MY father is the King of Kings

my voice may only be one in a million 
my thoughts may never ever me heard
my views of life may all be wrong
but my FATHER for gave my faults

my feelings may lead me in the wrong direction
my faith may tremble down
my picture of me may hurt myself
but my father CALLS me beautiful 

I may get hurt and shed some tears
I may fall down and let my soul cry out
I may even hurt someone I dearly love
but my father knows the real ME

I may forget to be thankful at times
I may not succeed in all I do
I may even lie to myself and not just others
but my father is the BELOVED God Almighty

I may not be what others want
I may act inappropriately in the moments
I may not look perfect every singe day
but my father created me in His image

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Happy Birthday!!

Today, my little brother Jacob turns 9. He is probably one of the most energetic people you'll ever meet, but i can promise you this, he almost always has a smile on his face. He is so sensitive on both the spirit and physically, he can sense when the lord is doing something. Jacob loves to make others happy, and he just always wants to love on everyone he meets. He has made me such a proud and happy big sister! I am so lucky to have such a joy bringer for a little brother. Jacob is also one of the smartest kids I know, he is so creative and he has an amazing gift for art. I know that the lord has wonderful plans for him, his future will be a great mystery to discover with him. God thank you for giving me 9 amazing years with your young beloved prince, and I thank you that there will be many more to come. Love you Jacopo! ♥ ♥ ♥ (He also has gorgeous clear sea blue eyes that just melt me every time I look into them)



Monday, March 26, 2012

What If

well at the moment I'm half asleep, so ill admit this is not my best work, but a poem is a poem! enjoy! :D


What if
What is no one ever was hurt
what if we could rewind all our mistakes
what if world hunger we could avert
what if we could clear all the worlds aches
what if we could all find that one person
what if falling in love didn't hurt as bad
what if our emotions never would worsen
what if pain was something never to be had
what if living each day was really for no good
what if just giving up is all we ever did
what if we all said all we really should
what if smiling was something someone forbid
what if thinking out our thoughts was not allowed
what if believing in hope was taken away
what if to the worlds power we actually bowed
what if we never let life in our lives stay

Thursday, March 22, 2012

In every single way

someone in my class actually asked me to write this, they asked me to write about this one guy in my class, i don't know him very well, but i can tell he is hurting! so this is not only for him, but for anyone feeling hurt and rejection and pain! <3 God is with you, so don't give up, not now, now ever! :D
In every single way
I remember seeing his face that first day
The hurt and rejection his eyes carried along
It seemed easier for its all just to stay
 but he knew he longed for it all to go away
I didn’t know his past, I must admit I still don’t
but looking into those eyes of his, I see the whole story
his childhood was tough, every single mote
constant arguing of something, not worth fighting for
rejection kept inside and finally exposed
but in the wrong way, it just hurt someone else
and slowly but surely, his heart started to close
because he hadn't learned any other way to let it go
at school he teased them, and shared unwanted hate
he made them feel bad, not knowing it himself
so his entire life he gave a new fate
just because he was lonely inside
I do not know what the future will hold
for people with rejection and pain
but there is one truth that I have been told
that God always forgives and helps us back up
so this is a short poem for all those with pain
giving you hope and Gods truth
though you may take who you are in vain
to him you are perfect and loved in every single way every single day

By: Elise Tkaczyk

Monday, March 19, 2012

Quotes

Joy is contagious, but sorrow has an overpowering force, which one will you allow to lead you?
-Elise Tkaczyk

Smiles are worth sharing, they can mend someones heart.
-Elise Tkaczyk

Saturday, March 17, 2012

Quote of the day!

if you spend your life thinking and dreaming about who you wish you were, your wasting away the beautiful person you really are....inside and out! ♥
-Elise Tkaczyk

Thursday, March 15, 2012

This is my big brother, his name is Jesus, he loves me more than I could ever imagine, but he proved that love to me when he died for my sins, he died just so that I could live...and he proves that love to me every singe day, by giving me joyous moments to treasure, by giving me a family that loves me, by giving me a smile to share, by giving me friends who love me and who I can love...its thanks to him I am who I am, its thanks to him I have and ever will accomplish anything, its thanks to him that I am sharing his love right now...he is the best big brother I could ever ask for...<3 I know he is always there to protect me and to hold me when I fall or when I get hurt! I know he is the lamb of God and that thanks to him, I will one day find perfect peace, joy, and rest in my kings arms...<3

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Gone

here is a poem i wrote just this morning...hope you like it...! :D

Gone

She was always there for everyone
Whenever they needed a friend
She always seemed like a second sun
When the clouds covered the skies

She listened to their souls cry
Helping all with guidance
Yet all her caring went to belie
Even after she gave her heart

Though she was with loving people every single day
None of them heard when her heart cried
Not listening to that, letting her stray
Eventually disappearing, caused by all the pain inside

She helped all her friends, with all their fault
Giving them all she could
Filling herself with pain and assault
She'd never been given anything else

Thought she smiled constantly everyday
she hid the pain inside
her heart filled with disarray
because no one opened for her

Everyone might even have thought
She'd end up best because she cared
But no I truly hope a lesson's been taught
Now that she is gone

Sunday, March 11, 2012

I thought, but...

I thought you were my friend, but now you turned your back
I thought you held my secrets, but now I see all you lack
I thought that I could trust you, but now your long gone
I though you'd always stay, but now you've moved on
I thought you were my friend, but I guess I was wrong
I thought you held my secrets, but now we say "so long"

Thursday, March 8, 2012

Bravery is holding on to hope and believing in a happy ending. <3

I wish

enjoy :D
I wish
I wish I could still see your eyes, 
then my heart would flutter and soar
I wish I could still see your arms, 
then I wouldn't shiver as often
I wish I could still hold your embrace, 
then the warmth wouldn't seem as distant 
I wish I could still see your face, 
then my soul could light up for a while
I wish I could still call me yours, 
then my heart could feel something more
I wish I could still stand by your side, 
then the past wouldn't haunt as much
-Elise Tkaczyk

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

Quotes

Be strong, be brave, stand straight, walk head up, though something might be frightening at the moment, keep on walking, its better in the long shot.
-Elise Tkaczyk

The problem thats causing all the others will pass as soon as you stand up to it.
-Elise Tkaczyk

If fear is really all that we should fear what are we so afraid of, fear is something we create ourselves, not something that was given to us by God.
-Elise Tkaczyk

Sunday, March 4, 2012

My Forever


I sit here pondering at my life
Why am I here, who am I really
I know I am only created in his image
And that His plans for me, their really great
But is that enough I often wonder
Does being loved cover it all

God tells me to keep my faith strong and pure
But at times my emotions want something else
Living each day through what might seem like hell
Though I know I am way above all that
My sins were and still are forgiven
Because my abba father loves me so dearly

The crap we all go through each and everyday
Is nothing compared to where we would be without Him
His love is never ending and unconditional
His word is true and living in my every breath

His light shines me a path of all true things
So when I am frightened I may stumble in his arms
His forgiveness surprises me everyday
Everyday that he lets me renew anew

The smiles I free come only from Him
He gave me the ability to do it all
Though I know not what or who I am
He knows every inch of me better than I do

So Lord I surrender again at this time
I give you my heart fully and wholly
Though my past might be sticky, you don't mind
Though Iv'e broken your heart, you forgive when I ask
I know all I need I can find in you
You are my beginning, my middle, my forever

Monday, February 27, 2012

Love me Too

If I were to take all of the stars and wrap them all up
They still wouldn't shine, the way your soul does
If I were to take every smile and put them all together
They still wouldn't bring as much joy as you bring to me
If I were to search every heart in the entire world
I would never find one as pure and whole as yours
If I were to speak every word that has ever been said
I would never find the words to describe how I love you
If I were to pour out my heart and give you all I could
I still couldn't give you as much as you have given me
If I were to wish upon blue moon with my fingers tightly crossed
It would never help because you said you love me too...<3

Sunday, February 26, 2012

funny quotes

Boy: Let's play a game. Any game you want, just not hide and seek. Girl: Why not hide and seek? Boy: Because a girl like you is impossible to find.
-unknown



I just read last year 4,153,237 people got married. I don't want to start any trouble, but shouldn't that be an even number?
-unknown



If Facebook ever shuts down. You'll see people roaming the streets shoving pictures in others faces screaming 'Do you like this!?!?!.. DO YOU!?!?!'
-unknown



That moment when you are trapped in the corner of your shower because the cold water is running.
-unknown


Thursday, February 23, 2012

Quote of the day!

Though the hard times seem to cover over the easy
Though the joyous memories sometimes fade to black
Though the pain seems stronger than the peace inside
Your light will shine brighter in a darkened room
 Than in a lift up room where all goes right
-Elise Tkaczyk

Monday, February 20, 2012

quote of the day!

no matter how much of year heart you put to words, those words will never be compatible to the actual feeling inside!
-elise tkaczyk

Saturday, February 18, 2012

Quote of the day!

Holding your hand makes my soul fly
looking into your eyes makes my heart flutter
watching you gaze at me makes me believe the impossible
listening to your heart beat makes my heart melt away in yours
watching you come to me makes me smile bigger every day
watching you walk away still crushes me every time
- Elise Tkaczyk

Thursday, February 16, 2012

A true friend

A true friend is someone that stands by your side not only when you fall but when your feet are securely placed on the ground, someone who will listen to your crazy thoughts over and over again, someone who holds your hand and makes you smile whenever you shed a tear. A true friend, that person who loves every insane bit of you, a true friend, thats what you are to me.
-Elise Tkaczyk

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Valentines day!

Its valentines day!!! This is seriously one of my favorite day! :D even though I have no valentine I can till write a love poem, so I did! :D enjoy!



I love....
I love the way you smile at me
whenever our eyes catch
I love they way you flip your hair
constantly again
I love the way you really see
all I am within
I love they way your eyes sparkle
that catchy happy shine
I love the way you say your words
each one carefully chosen
I love the way purse your lips
each time you’re about to laugh
I love the way you call us lovebirds
it makes me love you more
I love the fact that you love me too
its the only way I live
I love the way you lift my spirit
when I'm feeling down
I love the way you hold me close
when I’m bleeding inside
I love how you care about my preterit
its just as important as the future
I love the was you let me love you
because I sincerely do...<3

Monday, February 13, 2012

This really touches me

Just because I laugh a lot doesn't mean my life is easy. Just because I have a smile on my face everyday, doesn't mean that something isn't bothering me. I just choose to move on, and not dwell on all the negatives in my life. Every new moment gives me the chance to renew anew. I choose to be that!
-Unknown

Saturday, February 11, 2012

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Disney quotes

A dream, is a wish your heart makes...<3
- Cinderella

Smiles are catching.
- Winnie The Pooh

If you can dream it, you can do it.
- Walt Disney


Monday, February 6, 2012

Love me Too

If I were to take all of the stars and wrap them all up
They still wouldn't shine, the way your soul does
If I were to take every smile and put them all together
They still wouldn't bring as much joy as you bring to me
If I were to search every heart in the entire world
I would never find one as pure and whole as yours
If I were to speak every word that has ever been said
I would never find the words to describe how I love you
If I were to pour out my heart and give you all I could
I still couldn't give you as much as you have given me
If I were to wish upon blue moon with my fingers tightly crossed
It would never help because you said you love me too...<3

Quote

I wish you could hear the thoughts I'm to afraid to share...<3

Random quote by me

Sunday, February 5, 2012

Saturday, February 4, 2012

Random Quote

Though I often find myself pondering at the meaning of life, I realize and forget the same thing constantly. Life has more than one meaning, it can change as often as every second of the day, but not letting your heart yearn for the meaning, just because you know the truth, is like you not telling yourself the secret you already know.
- Elise Tkaczyk

Quote of the day!

Though my mind tells me to wait, my heart is screaming go ahead. Sometimes the choice between your mind and heart can't make all the difference. Good and bad.
-me

Friday, February 3, 2012

quote of the day!

When the world decides to knock you down, just get back up, don't just stay on the ground.
-Elise

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Quote of the day!

I want to live in a world where people are only judged by the content of them selves, on who they truly are in person.
-Me

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

quote of the day!

Never let the fear of falling down, keep you from walking through the door.
-Elise

Monday, January 30, 2012

quote of the day!

Make sure you don't trust to little, don't love to little, don't hope to little, and don't live to little. Because to much of the "to little" can hurt you more than to much.
-Elise Tkaczyk

Thursday, January 26, 2012

I Wish

I wrote this for a school assignment, the point was to write what you wish and then what would happen after.....hope you like it! :D enjoy! <3

I was I was an eagle, then I could fly
I wish I had money, to help myself and others
I wish I was older, then I could travel more
I wish I has wisdom, to never do wrong
I wish I was creative, then I could help all them children
I wish I had answers, to fulfill all my dreams
I wish I was someone, then life would be easier
I wish I had hope, to refuge the broken

Monday, January 23, 2012

Look back

We are on our way
as we pass through the day
The light pierces through the dark
giving us all a brand new start
His arms wrap around us, holding us tight
cleansing out bodies, from fear and fright
The past is the past
lets make the future last
Don't forget it all
'coz then you'll only fall
So remember you can't go ahead
if you leave you heart ripped in shreds
So go on straight on your path
but remember to look back, even for just a flash

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Joy to Bring

just wrote this, hope you like it! :D

Joy to Bring

For every seed giving a sprout
For every drop that hits the ground
For every breeze that blows away
For every pebble kicked around

For every song ever sung
For every voice ever hidden
For every dream ever crushed
For every hope ever forbidden 

For every child, freezing, starving
For every father disappearing 
For every mother taken away
For every person, hiding, fearing

You might have hopes and troubles too
But just remember this one true thing
Through every bit of lives encounter
To other joy you can bring...

Friday, January 13, 2012

I'm Gonna

enjoy! :D

i'm gonna sing, sing, sing til the day i die,
i'm gonna shout, shout, shout out the name of Jesus!
i'm gonna live, live, live every second for him,
i'm gonna believe, believe, believe that he saved my from my sins,
i'm gonna dream, dream, dream that all things are possible through him,
i'm gonna hope, hope, hope that what it fair will come,
i'm gonna love, love, love just like he loves us,
i'm gonna see, see, see with the eyes he gifted me with,
and i'm gonna share, share, share his holy word to all!

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Amazing!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=1IAhDGYlpqY

this is an amazing poem! i encourage you ALL to read it! it really hit me! :D

Heaven Sent

i did not write this poem either, but this is another really good one! enjoy! :D


Sound of the Deep, an echo in the night.
Following a path through the Forest,
on a horse, a lonely knight.

Far away, far away from home.
Following his path, wherever he may roam.
From deepest fields to Highest Heaven's dome.

Cries does a flock of birds, as they pass on his way.
A warning, a whisper of foul play.
He goes where he is needed.

Fear does not make him tremble, he is on a descent.
His foes will be conquered, for divinity, he is lent.
Death will leave no mark, for he is an angel, heaven sent.



by: unknown author

I'm happy when you smile

hey guys, so this poem i did not write but i find it adorable! i love it! hope you do as well! :D


When I’m with you
I love you by all my heart
And when I am not
You’re the one on my mind
You’re my dreams
And my thoughts
You’re my entire life

Without you, there is no me. 
With you, I have everything I need
I could do anything for you
Even die 
Your happiness is what matters
I’m happy when you smile…

If you stopped loving me
I would let you go
It would’ve been really hard
But your happiness is what matters
If you couldn’t find love with me
I would’ve given you the chance 
To find it elsewhere

Without you, there is no me.
With you, I have everything I need
I would do anything for you
Even let you go
Your happiness is what matters
I’m happy when you smile…

When I picture my future
You’re my man
I can see us getting old together
Die together
You’re someone I trust totally
Someone I can tell my deepest secrets
And I truly love you

Without you, there is no me. 
With you, I’m everything
I would do anything for you
Even forgive something unforgivable
Your happiness is what matters
I’m happy when you smile…



by: unknown author 

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Ensomhet

Hun glap en tåre
men ingen merket det

hun gjemte sitt ansikt
men ingen hviste det

hun løp vekk fra livet
men ingen brydde seg

hun hadde ingen venner
men ingen merket det

hun følte seg alene dag og natt
men ingen hviste det

hun hand i det mørke
men ingen brydde seg

hun kom til dem en dag
men ingen merket det

hun var her hele tiden
men ingen hviste det

hun forsvant, å var helt alene
men ingen brydde seg

ikke la en person være ensom, gi alle en venn, vær en venn till alle! :D

Saturday, January 7, 2012

Reflection

i wrote this two days ago, hope you like it! :D


I stare at my reflection,
deep down in the water
Looking through my past
As I look over my shoulder

Searching after life
In the deep hidden corners
Seeking for something good
in the tear drops form my eye

Looking for some joy
In the corner of his grin
Gazing after hope
Through the black midnight sky

Searching for a dream
Within our imagination
Seeking something possible
In the midst of the crowds

Hoping for a faith
In the flames of bright life
Destined for a though
While we gaze left to right

Thoughts, dreams, hopes, and life
Follow our every move
Seeking, searching in the midst
Of our confusing paths

Might hope for more but find the less
As our face hits the door
But to get back up and face it all
Shows true courage from the soul

Friday, January 6, 2012

just something simple! :D

why are you waiting for other people to validate you? the first person that should tell you you're awesome should be you!

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Courage

here is another story i have written, i have had a few comments on mistakes I've made, and thank you! but i want you all to know i will make mistakes! everyone does! so please do not criticize my writing based on a few spelling mistakes! thank you very much! enjoy...<3 :D

Courage
Josh could hear the girl breathing hard and heavily. But he could also hear she was breathing slower and slower. Josh put his ear to her chest to hear if the heartbeat was still at a normal pace. Her heartbeat was slowing down. Not good. Josh raced to get more bandages and came right back to the poor girl. He had found her last night lying in the middle of the forest path. She was as pale as snow and when he saw the wound on her leg he knew what he had to do.

She had lost a lot of blood. Josh didn’t need to be a doctor to tell that much. Luckily Josh was a doctor though, and he girl was lucky Josh had come when he had, if not she might have bled to death. It felt strange tending to a child he did not even know the name to. He had to help her though. She needed help, just like he had needed help.

As Josh tied the bandages around the girl’s leg he could hear her breathe faster again. She must have been through something really tough. Its not every day you find a girl lying in the woods past out and bleeding.

When he had seen her he had started to think back to when that was him. Lying there, completely helpless. That was why he didn’t want to help her at first. It had hurt too much. But he couldn’t just ignore the poor child. So he had brought her along to his cabin. That’s where he was headed anyway.

It hurt looking at the child. Every time he looked at her small face he though if himself. It had been almost twenty years now. But it still felt like yesterday. The thick heavy air of the cold and dark rainforest. Josh and his father had been on a trip. Josh’s father was at work, but for Josh it had been a vacation. Until everything went wrong.

His father had been a zoologist. His team had been assigned to go to Ecuador to study some animal behaviors in the rain forests there. Josh had begged and begged to come along and finally his dad had said yes. Now he wished he never would have gone. If so, his father might still have been his best friend. Josh had beaten himself for years after what happened. He always felt it was his fault. But when he gave his life to the Lord he felt forgiven. Since then Josh hadn’t worried about the guilt. He knew the pain was no longer his to bear.

It had been a regular day. Just like all the others. Everything was going great until they got to the inner parts of the forest. The air had gotten really thick so Josh had sat down to catch his breath. Soon enough though, he was alone. He couldn’t see his father, or the rest of the team. He couldn’t hear them either. He started to call out to them, hoping they would hear him. It was no use. He kept on shouting as he walked in the direction he hoped they had walked in.

Josh was getting dizzy from the thick air. He needed a break. He kept telling himself he needed to rest. But he had to find his dad. He knew how dangerous it was in the forests, his dad had always told stories of all the dangerous things in a rain forest. So josh knew how to stay away from all the dangerous animals and obstacles if he had to. It was getting dark and josh knew it was very dangerous on the ground at night. He found a tall tree and climbed up it. Finding a comfortable spot was hard, but not impossible. Knowing that any snake could bite him and he could die instantly was a frightening though. But he had to sleep some if he wanted to keep searching for his father in the morning.

The night had been rough. It felt as if Josh had awoken every time there was a sound or a movement somewhere. But at least he was alive. Just as Josh hit the ground with his cold bony legs, he heard a growl. And there, about twenty feet away from him was a big and fattened tiger. He was growling and Josh which made him nervous. Was the lion going to eat him?  Or was he just going to kill Josh? He didn’t know. Tigers, that was something his dad had never gotten to. Why not? Tigers were so commonly seen. And now he needed his fathers help more then ever.

Why had josh ever sat down? If he hadn’t been lazy this wouldn’t have happened. He would still be with his father. Probably eating breakfast instead of being the breakfast. Josh panicked and as soon as he did he knew he had just made matters worse for himself. He started to run. The tiger just stood there for a few minuets but soon enough Josh was being chased as a mouse by a cat.

Then josh tripped over a branch and he yelled. He knew this was the end. Then he heard his father yelling from a far, “Don’t move son, stay completely still!” Josh froze, and as he did the tiger stopped running. The orange and white beast strode closer and closer. As he did Josh felt fear climb through every limb in his body. He could hear his own breath loudly, he was shacking violently and his eyes were burning. Then he saw his father coming from behind the tiger with a gun. Josh stared into his father’s eyes. They were as black as nigh, the dark colors of them almost made him look evil. His eyes were full of anger, but they were also full of fear.

After that everything happened to quickly. Josh’s father had stepped on something and made a sound and the tiger had turned around at lighting speed. Josh yelled out to his father and his father lost his concentration. His father shot once, but missed. Instead of hitting the tiger he had hit the only other thing in his way. Josh. Josh felt pain rush through his arm. Josh’s father shot again just as the tiger jumped on him. The tiger clawed him right on the chest and in the face holding his grip firmly and fell dead, putting all his weight on Josh’s father.

Josh could hear his father screaming. He saw that his father was bleeding, badly. Josh wasn’t able to move or make a single noise. He saw some of the crewmembers moving the tiger of his father. He saw their faces when they looked down at their dear friend. Then he saw them taking their hats off, and closing their eyes. That’s when josh realized it. His father was gone. Forever. Josh’s father’s best friend had come to Josh to help him. He had taken care of his wounds as well as he could and gotten him home on an emergency helicopter right away.

The years passed quickly. Josh had been badly wounded by the tiger. He’d had surgery to remove the bullet from the bone in his arm. He’d decided to become a children’s doctor. He would learn everything from giving a shot to doing surgery. One of the patients he had helped was named Kiah. She was only five and needed heart surgery. Even though the charts said her heart was failing, she had the biggest and most loving heart out of all the people Josh had ever met.

The day before the surgery he had come for a visit to talk to her. He was hoping to calm her nerves, but instead, she calmed his. “Dr. Josh? Do you remember that story you told me, about the tiger?” Josh didn’t reply, he just nodded his head. “That was very brave. So I’m going to be brave like you Dr. Josh, I want to be like you.” She smiled up to him. Josh pulled the small child close to his body and hugged her. “You want to be brave? Well I know you’ll make me proud and do amazing tomorrow.” Kiah smiled up to him, and with a small chuckle she added, “I wont let you down Dr. Josh! I promise!” the bell for supper rang, “Run along now, go eat your food so you can be strong for tomorrow.

Josh watched Kiah walk slowly inside and through the hallway to her room. It was a miracle she even had the energy to be walking. After she was gone he though of what the little girl had said. “I want to be like you” Kiah’s words had played over and over again in Josh’s head. Then he smiled and went back into his office
Even though it was long ago, he could remember it like the back of his hand. It was thanks to Kiah that Josh had given his life to Christ. Josh still saw Kiah sometimes. Kiah and her family were going to come for a visit to his cabin next week. They were going to go fishing, go on long mountain hikes. They were going to attend a church meeting there was once a month at the top of one of the mountains and they would swim in the cool refreshing water out back after the long hike back.  

Josh was sitting beside the hurt child when she awoke. She sat up and Josh could immediately see the fright in her eyes. He stood up and held her closely and helped hey lay down again. “There you go, just lie still and try to relax. I’m Dr. Josh, are you hurting anywhere?” Josh learned that the child’s name was Ellie. She told Josh that last night she had been running in the forest and she’d tripped. She’d hit the ground hard and landed on a glass bottle, what was left of it anyway. Her leg had started to bleed a lot and it had hurt badly. Ellie said she had tried to go back home but she couldn’t feel her leg and she had fallen to the ground again.

Josh told her that everything would be fine. He would fix her sores and take her back home. The child smiled. He could see some color come back into her cheeks as she lay there peacefully. Josh had always read about people saving lives and being a hero, but with his job, and the courage Kiah reminded him of, he knew he was also a hero. Every person on the planet could be a hero. If the knew how to have courage. 

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Fate

this is something that yes, i have written from experience, but i know that a lot of people get their hart broken and get stuck! well trust me, I've been there as well! :D

Fate
As I watch the pages of fate turn,
Each going in their own direction.
I wish I could say there was no lesson to learn,
But I’m told that I shouldn't lie.
I remember the days you’d held me close, 
As I was gazing into your eyes.
But when you chose a different road,
I realized all you’d said were lies.
The lies had distracted me from seeing what was real,
But finally the true you showed.
In the beginning it had all sounded like such a deal, 
But in the end you just took my heart and ran.
I sometimes wonder what will become of us two,
And if we’ll ever cross paths again.
But for now all I can do is think of you,
And hope that this so called fate will clear us both a way.